bethy d. ashford (bethyboo42) wrote,
bethy d. ashford

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bethy's tabula rasa.

Gahhhh... was that a bitch and a half to delete all my old entries on here.. it took me like 2 hours just to do that alone. I just wanted to clean out my journal of old memories.. whether they were good or even bad... I just wanted to start new with a clean slate.. or what "Tabula Rasa" means. But it took for fucking ever to do that because this website is that great on deleting posts all at once.. so that really sucked ass. My hand is sore from clicking the mouse sooooo damn much.. who knew I had sooo many fricken entries in this damn journal. lol. It feels good, I feel like parts of my life were deleted so I never have to read or think abou thtem ever again. I also wanted to deleted entries to make myself feel better because life is better than before and there is nothing left to hide. And by the way.... Yes, I am gay.. so everyone can get over that now. I been with my beautiful girlfriend for well over 3 years now.. will be 4 on July 21.. so if you don't know that.. now you do and can't judge me because I been with her when you didn't know. There is absolutely nothing different about me.. I am the same old person that I always once was.. I am proud and so very in love.. so I would appreciate if you were happy for me as well. I am who I am.. your approval is not needed. I love you Hollywobbles!<3 Don't judge anyone before you know them... or I might break your fingers ever so slowly! ;)

So anywho.. in my life now.. I've decided to make a few changes.. I will leave that to myself.. but just know that. I am currently trying to find a job.. been to about 4 interviews and nothing back.. damnit. I think I might have something in the bag.. so I will just have to wait and see. I had gotten my 11th tattoo.. my tribal hip piece.. it needs a touch up because it wasn't done tooo great.. but it will look a lot better after tomorrow. I am going to school for Cosmetology in the fall, for those who don't know that yet.. yes, no more nursing for me. That was my mother's choice in career for me because she wanted me to be a nurse like my sister.. I thought I might do it too.. but it was just not for me. And, I'm so glad I realized that and that I'm going to be going to school for me and something that I would like to do. I guess everything else is good with me... I just have a few issues (in me) that I need to cancle my subscriptions too! ;) And, I guess that is about it for now. Until next time kiddos.
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